**Thanks to my friend, customer and reader Dea who gave me the idea for this blog**
I love to shop.
No, that’s not quite accurate. I love to shop online. As someone with quite a moderate case of social anxiety, being around lots of people while I’m trying to get my head straight enough to actually buy the item I walked into the store for can be too much. I hate grocery shopping with a passion so hubby usually gets that horrible chore to do, but what I absolutely cannot resist shopping for is jewellery making stuff.
Unfortunately, I live in an area that pretty much sucks when it comes to shopping for these items.We have two aisles in Spotlight and while that’s an improvement on what we used to have and will do in an absolute pinch, I can usually be found scouring the internet for all my bits and bobs. I have my favourite stores – Rio Grande for my wire, a few Etsy sellers for other bits and bobs…..and Ebay for my stones.
Having money in my Paypal account is dangerous. Have you ever watched a dog when they’re watching you eat? You know how they start drooling and they get that glazed over look in their eyes when you finally give in and give them a pork chop? Yeah, that’s me.
Up until recently though I’ve been pretty good, only buying two or three stones at a time, and always using the “Buy It Now” feature and giving the seller what they’re asking for. In fact, just a few weeks ago I bought eight new beautiful stones (I’m still waiting for them to arrive but they’re scrumptious and I can’t wait to show them off to you!).
Then, a few days ago, I decided to bid on a fabulously gorgeous pinkish red stone that I’ve never seen before. The shape and colour are magnificent and I knew it had to be mine. Decidedly out of character for me, I hit the place bid button and it was like I was taken over by some strange, bidding monster. My God, who knew I could get stones like THAT for THAT price?!?
Why didn’t I think of this earlier?!?
The next thing I knew, there were another 7 stones begging to be bought by me, and yes, I’d bid on all of them. It’s such a weird feeling, especially for someone who doesn’t bid on anything and never gambles or does anything “uncertain” with money. I got over it pretty quick though and thought, “Oh what the hell? If I can get some yummy stones like this without breaking the bank, then that’s awesome!”
Then I was outbidded.
What the hell?
Now, I’m not an idiot and know full well that this was a possibility, but I wasn’t expecting that strange, sinking feeling which was then instantly replaced by “Oh no you didn’t!” complete with head bob….
Up went the bid.
It’s okay, I’m still in control, it’s all good. I can stop whenever I want….
I didn’t sleep. I ended up sitting up half the night, terrified that I’d lose
my precious my stones. It’s so weird. There’s this really odd feeling of ownership over the items you’re bidding on, and they’re not even yours yet! Who invented this craziness?
The next morning, it happened. I got into a slight bidding war (well it was more of a tussle, really), and I emerged victorious and won that gorgeous red/pink stone.
The feeling of accomplishment was incredible, and completely addictive. I have a background in psychology and I know a little somethin’ somethin’ about addiction, and this sure feels like it!! After a few more upped bids (they make that so easy, don’t they? “Just click this button and we’ll spend your money for you!” ), I won another six auctions in the following few hours. Go me! The actual physical feeling of clicking the button, waiting for confirmation that yes, you are indeed the highest bidder on this item, or getting the infuriating “You’ve been outbidded!” message, then clicking again is stupidly soothing. Too soothing!
It sounds like I’ve spent an absolute fortune. I haven’t; not even close. I think that’s part of the appeal. I can get 6 stones for the price of two or three. I’ve been buying on Ebay for years but there’s always that feeling of “what if it’s crap?” and yet this time around, I don’t feel so anxious. I did all the right things…checked out the feedback, read some reviews, shopped around…but honestly because of the small amount that I spent on the 7 stones that I won, it’s not making me feel quite as sick as it did before. If they’re crap, I’ll be heartbroken because they are truly beautiful in the pictures, but it’s not going to break the bank.
Anyway, between the auctions and items I’ve bought recently on a “buy it now” basis (like the ten GORGEOUS gemstone cabochons that I SWEAR jumped into my Ebay cart and checked themselves out this morning!) I have 25 beautiful stones winging their way to me so I can spoil you guys with gemmy gorgeousness…..
plus the one I’m hoping to win tomorrow…I’m still the highest bidder….